"Enflickerment": (Noun) Derived from "Enlightenment". A Realization. A small awakening. A Mini-revelation.

From The Roche Dictionary

The past week was pretty rough for me, emotionally. I had a lot of things on my mind (wow, how descriptive) and catching a semi-cold did not help either. But I got through the week. And I have to say that the week ended a lot better than when it started. Thanks to some alumni who we had dinner with on Friday.

This weekend my father asked if I was doing ok. I guess coming home and flopping on the couch hardly saying anything and falling asleep kind of gave it away. I answered that I was doing fine and that I was glad the week was over.

I started talking to him about my problems, mostly concerning my romantic relationship which is when my Enflickerment took place.

This was my way of thinking prior to my conversation with my father:

In any kind of relationship (Not just romantic), people have ideals. We all strive for those ideals like its some kind of goal line that we have to cross in order for the relationship to work. But as we start heading for the goal line, inevitably we run into problems. The problem blocks our way until we solve it and start moving again.

In order to attain the ideals, we have to keep working through the problems until we get to the goal.

Or so I thought...

In turn my father said that relationships are about solving those problems. The goal, the ideal, is something we set our sites on but will never attain. And when you can accept that relationships are about solving those problems we encounter on the way, that's when it works.

*FLICKER* *FLICKER*

I stood there in the kitchen, silent for awhile. It was one of those rare moments in which something I believed in so strong was completely shattered by something else that made so much more sense.

Realizaton is the first step. Acceptence is the hard part.

I'll try my best,

Thanks dad.

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